Sometimes I feel like I was born in the wrong generation. I find the simple beauties in life instead of the extreme. I find a lot of people around me in my actually generation I don't fit in with. What they see as fun and what I see as fun I are two very different things. I sometimes feel like an alien in around my friends these days. I am the person that wants to go out for a dances and get dressed up but doesn't want to be drunk. I am the person that wants a long term relationship building a family and life together not random "fun" hook ups. I am the girl that would take a great friendship group coming over to mine every weekend for food and a few drinks then being in the clubs. Over the years I have started to feel like I'm just boring. But maybe I am not boring I am just an old soul.
I feel at home exploring old places, like I can imagine how it would have been one day with the music and dresses. In old villages where there is still that feeling of community you get a lot less of in big towns. I have been visiting a lot more of these places since we have been able to go places with the uk lockdown being lifted a bit. Its been nice to just have time to see places that are so close to my home. I feel like this is something I should have done a lot sooner. Sitting in these places I am just perfectly myself and happy. I don't feel pressure to fit in with other sand be that fun clubbing care free girl. I can be the old soul I am and just take in the pretty sights.
Also with my fashion, I am definitely not from my generation. I love vintage soft grunge fashion. Wearing old vintage dresses with twist of some big boots and a leather jacket. I worried about my fashion and thought I will be judge for being different to the norms in society but then I realised as I left college that fashion was my hobby. I love putting together unique outfits and fun things. I like that I am different and don't fit the norms.
Don't get me wrong I have moments when I really struggle with feeling like alien in my generation. However as I have gain the confidence to share with people my interests and fashion I have found more people like myself that like this different side to life. It is actually making so happy that I am slowly growing my own community of people on instagram and through my blog to find more people like myself.
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